“Life is a rollacoaster you just after ride it”

So I am dusting of the cob webs and writing my post today for undiagnosed children’s day and you can check out what’s going on everywhere else today too  ‪#‎itsamystery

April 2006 just a normal day on the market stall when serving one of the stalls oldest costumers she said to me “This baby is going to be special and change your lives forever”  I didn’t know I was pregnant we had only agreed to have another child a month before but by the end of day I had done a test and it was positive.

If I really think about it this is when I stepped on the rollercoaster for the first time as my pregnancy was not the kind of pregnancy you would want. Fast forward and Archie was born at 37+ weeks normal delivery.  We had some feeding difficulties and he was born with a club foot at 6 weeks old there was concern due to his head circumference it had grown at an alarming rate.

Doctors after scans could not tell me why my son’s head was growing at an alarming rate and why he was presenting in this way, development was becoming apparent that it would be delayed and again he was tested for many things all showing normal or negative.  I use to drive my self crazy sat on Google wondering and reading all about different conditions that my son may or could have, going back and forth asking doctors questions but even the medical profession couldn’t  give me answers and this journey on the rollercoaster became a very lonely ride.  Archie has profound and multiple learning difficulties, cortical visual impairment, Epilepsy, Archoniod cyst on the frontal lobe of his brain, mobility issues, gross & fine motor skills are impaired, sensory processing difficulties,  but each part of the jigsaw puzzle didn’t add up and this was frustrating it was like tying to do a jigsaw puzzle but too many pieces were missing there for you couldn’t see the picture. The rollercoaster became a very scary & frightening place to ride on your own and I just wanted to jump of but I couldn’t this was my new life a life I had never asked for, a life that for some reason we were given.  Many times I wanted to give up & give him back but I just couldn’t I had to face head on what was coming our way.  Archie was a little boy who needed so much help and I couldn’t give him that help on my own, he needed support from the physiotherapist, occupational therapist, speech & language therapist, health care system, education system, visual impairment specialist, neurologist,  paediatricians, dietitians the list was endless and this became so over whelming, while Archie was having all this support I felt I had non and we were the only ones going through this I only knew a few other people with disabled children and there children had a name for their disabilities.

Then 3 years ago I came across swanuk and all of a sudden I was not alone any more they’re was more of us with children that were undiagnosed my rollercoaster ride was no longer scary, frightening or lonely it became a ride I enjoyed was fun exciting and full of families sharing their experiences together. My rollercoaster journey will continue but at least I know we will share the highs, lows, dips, the big hoops together and it will never go back to feeling lonely again because I have my swan family to help me. please help this to continue by watching our video of lots of children having fun and if you can spare some time  donate the price of a cup of coffee this will also help other families become less isolated and alone.  http://youtu.be/XVQW1JY8JJ8

Living with the unknown ?

I have always had lots of friends in my life and never really felt isolated or lonely, until I had my son Archie on 14th of January 2007. I knew there was something not right I had that feeling but you put your trust in the professionals.

Archie wasn’t a straight forward baby and came with his little problems but I loved him so so much. Time passed and we knew he had special needs and so did everyone else by now, he started special school in September 2009 at the age 2.5 years, and its here I met lots of other mum’s and dads with disabled children, as much as these became a big part of my life and understood what I was going through and some are really true friends now they had answers for their children, well most of them did and I never felt that I didn’t belong to the group however the feeling of not having answers to Archie’s difficulties or reasons for certain behaviours made me feel different.

I found SWAN UK through someone else on face book in summer 2011 and since then I have really made friends where I do belong we all understand the feeling of the unknown and the feeling of more test been negative.

We face together all the uncertainties and find info out we might never of known about, we share our journeys through our blogs ,we talk, cry, laugh,feel each others pain and help each other through the toughest times. Some of our friendships are so strong even though we have never met  we  know when there is just something not right with one another and we no to check into the group to find out. Some of us swan mums have met up or talked about meeting.

SWAN UK means everything to me a lifeline away from the doctors/consultants/hospitals/specialists.  We no longer feel isolated,we belong to a group who just ‘gets’ what we are about and what we are going through – no one else seems to.  I love the fact that we can share the highs and lows of all our journeys, and we don’t have to explain for the millionth time what issues our SWANS have, so SWAN UK means the world to me ( belonging, understanding, sharing happy and sad times – Building friendships and no longer feeling alone). Help spread the awareness of undiagnoised day this saturday by supporting swan uk. Wear pink or blue take a photo and post to facebook or twitter and join in the fun. Here is a little back ground of some of the tests we have been through.

The tests are the hardest things to deal with, they leave you in fear of what may come back, that you just might not cope with the outcome,  the sick feeling you get while you wait the lengthy time for results to come in, praying they find something wrong so they can start treatment, or not find anything, but then the blow comes back they are normal, NORMAL? what is that and whats next? not even a little something ,no abnormality to go with.   we started with the first basic test

bloods = normal

then a more in-depth blood test = normal

we were told the tests were for metabolic disorders and then left to go home, test again came back normal? this was very upsetting for us as a family. My son was like a pin cushion backwards and forwards for more test.

CAT scan  nothing = normal yet again, onto have a MRI nothing, i  excepted that would be the case and was getting used to hearing that word NORMAL , it was obvious my son was “not normal” he wasn’t meeting any of his milestone so wasn’t developing, he had feeding difficulties , his head circumference was growing at alarming rate, and he started treatment for his club foot.

We were refered to genetics to start test with them. First test was more blood, poor child he didn’t give blood very well it clotted very quickly so was very dramatic for all of us. while waiting for result of this test, I had been on the internet searching for answers, looking for a syndrome my child may fit into. I came across Sotos syndrome a overgrowth syndrome, I asked the consultant if we could have a bone age scan as this syndrome you needed to have an advance bone age, This came back as delayed , What does this mean, I was told its has no significance really so yet again NORMAL?.  I later found out when I asked if I could see and read the report that my child at 2 years 2 months, that some of his bones were advanced by 6 months and others were very severely delayed,  but over all there was a severe discrepancy of his birth age and bone age so over all the configuration of the hand and absence of ossification of the thumb was in keeping of a new-born child , WHAT?

Ok appointment came through a few months after the scan , to see the genetics consultant we had to go through everything again, The pregnancy what it was like, the birth, the first few months and then the 2 years with all the test etc. Eventually the first line of investigation started with some of his chromosome’s to be tested  ( karyotype 46xy) = normal. so samples passed on to have another test (karyotype mlpa (po70)x2   this is to see if there is any deletion or duplication of any of the sub-telomeric regions of all 46 chromosomes = normal. We had photos of Archie taken so DRs could look at them and try to see if there where any facial features or body features that could point them in a direction to test next, we went on to have his PTEN gene tested and it was suggested that he also have a full skeletal survey which may give more clues as to whether it could be a storage disorder, 2 conditions in mind where Alexander disease and glutaric acid urea, these tests could take months and months as there was waiting lists. In the mean time we saw an ophthalmologist as he didn’t seem to respond to anything so thought he was blind,

Eventually i had a phone call a year later from genetics to say  his PTEN gene had come back with a normal results this meant he didn’t have (Bannanyan Riley Ruvalcalba) syndrome. We still hadn’t had result for the skeletal survey yet for the other disorders I spoke of earlier.

His name then went on to the list for CGH(comparative genomic hybridisation) test but there is a very long waiting list and funding isn’t always available. Also a sample of DNA  was sent of to Newcastle to test for Fragile x syndrome, this also had come back negative so told again its NORMAL ?. Other test reports came through that had been done alongside all of the others one in particular   (karyotype) mlpa (p245,GATA4, TNKS PPIL2,SMARCB1)x2, This test checks for microdeletions/microduplications  and this too was a normal result.

i had began to give up and just concentrated on making sure he had all the help and support he needed to develop skills, even though we had no answers we knew all the medical terms for his little difficulties that when put together became very complex issues and global development delay and learning difficulties.

  • Large head (macrocephaly)
  • Club foot
  • Constipation
  • Floppy ( hypotonia)
  • Feeding difficulties
  • Small hands
  • Small feet
  • Re accruing chest infections
  • Bronchiolities
  • Abdominal pains
  • Failure to thrive
  • Delayed bone age, at 2 years old his bones were that of a newborn
  • High arched roof of mouth
  • teeth grinder
  • Milk,gluten,wheat intolerance’s  (out grown by 4)
  • short statue  (but now growing)
  • sleeping difficulties
  • possible myoclonic jerks (epilepsy)
  • random out of context laughing (gelastic epilepsy)
  • stable alterative esotropia (squint)

Eventually he went on to have a EEG that also was normal no surprise there then, Test slowed down and we were just monitored  and seen every 3 months,  In december 2011 we got the results of the CGH test and yes you guessed correctly NORMAL?. On the letter it said  “so in the mean time please keep me informed of any changes with his development and I have now passed you onto the DDD study (Deciphering Developmental Disorders)  I have sent you more information on this thank you”.

I was so fed up of all the normal results when it was very clear my son was not developing like a nuero typical child (normal child)  see i had even learnt the terms of normal and non-normal ( non-nuero typical). so I requested that we got a new peadeiatric consultant , fresh pair of eyes, we went over everything again and how he is now, and decided to repeat bloods due to excessive eating & drinking, also a sleep deprived EEG, test came back ok with bloods but the EEG was ABNORMAL  another blog post , https://swanarchie07.wordpress.com/2012/07/17/normal-all-this-time-then-a-abnormal-11/ so he is now been treated for Epilepsy, We are now at the stage of just waiting to see the out comes of the DDD study and who knows what the future holds, one thing for sure is I found SWAN UK http://www.geneticalliance.org.uk/projects/swan.htm    and now I don’t feel alone anymore.  You can follow me on my blog @  https://swanarchie07.wordpress.com/

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SWAN TOUR !!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUMMIES NIGHT OUT ( Birmingham 23rd Feb 2013)

This weekend I went away with a bunch of mums I have been friends with on-line since I joined the swan UK face book back in 2011. I had the time of my life and can’t believe how close we really all are. Living without a diagnoses for my son has been difficult but without the support of all the mums, dads & grandparents of swan UK the world would have been much scarier. Meeting them all in person is so much more real and chatting about our experiences was just amazing I didn’t want it to end, I really know now I am not alone and I have people I will be friends with for life. Here is poem one of the mums made up on her way home to Scotland  brilliant xx2013-02-23 19.57.06
Oh what a night!
Swan mummies out in Birmingham
Lots of good chat and tons of fun
Oh swan mummies, what a night!
 Oh what a night
Drinks at premier inn and hoodies galore
Off to Jamie’s where they knew the score
Lots of swan hoodies, what a night!
Oh what a night
Got all lost when we hit the clubs
Flares or reflex or just stay in the pub?
Drunk swan mummies, what a night!
Oh what a night
Back together where the floors were sticky
Lots of laughter and taking the mickey
Very drunk mummies, what a night!
Oh what a night
Emma Murphy what an amazing effort
A lot of mummies you did sort
Now for hangovers, what a night!
Oh what a night!
Sorry not everyone was able to come
Hopefully you’ll make the next one and have lots of fun
Manchester, york, Scotland, london here’s to the next SWAN night !!!
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my journey my way parent particapation

Hello my name is Patsy Beverley and I am the parent of a 6yr old boy called Archie, he has complex needs and is still undiagnosed with a genetic condition we belong to the swan family ( syndromes without a name) SWAN UK is a project run by genetic alliance uk. You can follow them here http://www.undiagnosed.org.uk/
I have come long way since having Archie and i want to share my journey with you and how been a member of a parent forum can really help you get your voice heard and help shape the personalisation gender in your own LA. Been part of the pilot & changes in my own LA have really turned mine and also my husband’s way of thinking to be more positive, most of all it has for certain stopped Archie my son falling into the system and becoming a number rather than a person. This may seem harsh but in reality it isn’t.
Back in June 2010, I had the privilege to be part of a course called sharing knowledge (partners in policymaking) I never thought this would change mine and other parents/carers way of thinking about their disabled child or young person, And not for one minute did I ever think I would be working for myself helping other parents & carers the same way I have been helped. This all started with me volunteering my time to the forum and participating in coffee mornings & then small steering groups on smaller issues that affected mine and other families lives. Time passed by and eventually we ended up taking part in the pilot of Individual budgets in children’s social care and got a personal budget and it is the best thing I could have done really.
Personalisation can and does get very mixed up and if it isn’t delivered correctly results in failing. Some people really don’t understand the real value of personalisation and before any of it can work parents/carers need to be given the right tools to prepare for it before they are offered or even considering taking on a personal budget.
For me I knew this was the way forward but how would I get there?
I got there by having the support of, powerful people in my life that put their faith in what they believed in, and in return gained my trust, this happened because there were strong values, strong parent participation and help for families to get through the tough times right from the heart.
So in November 2010 the pilot began. I wasn’t really sure what to expect, I had heard about them but didn’t really understand much about them. I was excited and also nervous about what this would entail for us as a family. This was an emotional process and very stressful time but without Katie and some other amazing people to support me through the process I wouldn’t be stood here today talking about how important it is to start with first and for most the person and their families and encourage parent participation because after all its us parents that know what our children and young people need to support them through their journey and achieve their goals in life. If that means being in control of their own individual budget then they need to be equipped and be able to acquire the skills that will allow them to achieve their hopes and aspirations for the future and then design the support and services around this to achieve the outcomes they want to achieve.
The real value of being able to tell my story is because of the work and support of a very special lady Katie Clarke, and the work she has done over the last 12 years in my LA is truly invaluable. As an organisation parent/carer forums can achieve and grow in strength and eventually families will put their trust in the forum. Archie is very young and this pilot has helped me to believe that he will reach his full potential as he will have support to do this, and also not to be afraid of being able to dream about what we as Archie’s carers want for him in his life.
We had a P.A.T.H done (positive alternatives tomorrow with hope) the PATH process is very emotional and for the first time it’s about the person and not the services, this is empowering and should never be underestimated, it also gives you a visual tool to keep looking back at and see how far you have moved forward and the things you have achieved, this also keeps you very focussed and positive about the next steps you want to take.
The end result is the budget!!!!! But it’s not everything,
It’s only the roof on the house
But before that we need to start with the correct foundations and not rocky foundations!
Foundations need to be strong in the first place to be able to continue on the journey without them if you continued to carry on and struggle through you would lose sight of the most important thing in life (the person in question) if we don’t think and act now at the start of our journeys of personalisation and implement the support needed to help parents/carers with emotional support and practical support to build their resilience so they can be strong enough to reach the goals and aspirations of their children and young people, then when they do reach the top and receive the budget things will just start to fall and collapse around them.
Grass roots and up is what I heard a lot of
Emotional wellbeing of the family or the person in?
Resilience Building
Support
Trust
Faith
Empowerment
Not to be judged
This takes time and no time can be put on people’s life’s as we all work very differently. This can only be achieved with parent participation, Local Authorities listening to parent/carers training care compassion and experienced facilitator’s that will bring the best out of the individuals, also by us all been part of our community and the wider community ,and working in partnership with everybody and all services this will be made easier and more successful.
Archie’s PATH took place on the 12th of February 2011 and Archie and we as a family achieved the targets set on his plan within a year this would not have been achievable without the emotional support of Katie and her colleagues helping me with this. It is a working assessment but the difference about this assessment is, it is very positive and it’s all around the person, and everybody gets invited to come along who the family feel will make a positive contribution to the plan and talk about what’s important to them and not what they can’t do or what’s available or not available in terms of service’s and support.
So as I was once told by a lady called Lynne Elwell from partners in policy making, get rid of those bad fairies in your life the ones that stress you and cause you more problems and keep the good fairies that keep you positive and help you through the tough times.

Too many assessments for what !!!! Part 3 LOL

So if you haven’t already please read my other blogs part 1 & 2 first or this just might not make much sense  https://swanarchie07.wordpress.com/2012/03/14/too-many-assessments-for-what-all-the-crap-that-is-thrown-at-you/  part 1

https://swanarchie07.wordpress.com/2012/08/28/too-many-assessments-for-what-all-the-crap-that-is-thrown-at-you-part-2/  part 2

This seems to be a habit now and its gone on far too long and to tell you the truth I am fairly fed up now, 22 months and we are still at the same stage.

So whats happen since I last wrote, yes you guessed it we have had more meetings. Eventually I have found the strength to request a statement of reasonings and the policy they have used to come to their conclusion of  not allowing me to use my son’s personal budget for an overnight break. They sent me a copy of the  DISABLED CHILDREN NEEDS, ASSESSMENT MATRIX  & ALLOCATION OF RESOURCES not what I asked for but a very useful piece of paperwork to have because not only is half of the information in it wrong it actually says I could have over nights, so now I am confused to why they have wasted my time, energy, hours, and not to mention money for the last 22 months saying I don’t qualify.

On Friday 14th December  I wrote to the complaints department and logged my complaint officially yes even though my local councillors took the complaint on my behalf (or so I thought and so did they) that this was also classed as official but apparently not, so I now had to start the process all over again. I am a parent that can navigate the systems fairly well and prepared to learn as I go along and stick up for what I believe is my sons rights and even I am finding that the system is a mined field and so wrong.

This is now down to principles and what is right and wrong not about me getting an overnight break now and again. I will finish what I started out to do because I know my LA have treated me badly and I am not going to let this happen, It is happening far too much to far too many people and we need to stand up for the families that can’t do this for them self. The systems are changing and moving fairly fast at the moment with all the new reforms around SEN and the social care modal, its parents & carer’s that need to stand up and voice their concerns because without us how do they know they are getting it wrong. PLEASE FOLLOW ME  and help me to help other parent/carer’s on their journeys  thank you for taking time to read  the full story www.facebook.com/Voices4Parents.

Too many Assessments for what !!!! all the crap that is thrown at you part 2

Like I promised part 2 is here, Later than I planned I know but my memory was triggered by a status on SWAN UK face book group about a carer’s assessment ? part one can be read here https://swanarchie07.wordpress.com/2012/03/14/too-many-assessments-for-what-all-the-crap-that-is-thrown-at-you/

Nothing much has really changed or moved forward BUT NO SURPRISE THERE REALLY.

So I left you with I was talking to my councillors and the talks have happened and meetings have taken place oh and more meetings and this is where I think we are?

Archie’s plan was based on the hours he was already receiving through a direct payment and there for didn’t really reflect the true cost of what we needed to pay for to achieve the positive outcomes in the new plan, so we tried our best with what we had to achieve as many of them as we could.  I was influenced to think outside of the box and look at what might make our lives that little bit easier than just traditional care offered through social services. We went through training with experienced people who were commissioned through the local authority. A PATH took place this is a visual plan (positive alternatives together with hope) and from this a written plan was drawn up.

The plan was approved with conditions that my social worker would look at assessing me for nights as well as me accessing the sleep programme offered by the disabled children’s team, I went on this course and also kept a sleep diary, It was agreed by the DCT nurse team member that sleep wasn’t behavioural and it was more of a medical reason to why my son never slept.

The rest of the plan worked well until after the summer holidays of 2011 when I was very ill and in a lot of pain and waiting to be diagnosed.  I suffered for 3 months of not knowing what was wrong with me.

I was diagnosed in December 2011 with fibromyalgia after seeing a specialist at the hospital.

I was struggling to do my day-to-day job as well as care for Archie.

In between waiting to see a specialist my social worker had done an amendment to my core assessment and had decided that due to all the (stress going on with me been ill and my husband losing his job and our relationship been a little nonexistent) are you surprised with the shit you but us through, she thought we didn’t warrant nights and if they had been granted then this would put a blanket on the situation ?   To my understanding I would say this was being judgemental and wasn’t really sure what she meant by this.

I didn’t agree and would like to complain and take this to the next level please. I Didn’t get anywhere with her manager either and was spoken to in not a very nice manner will leave this to your own imagination. But not long after he left.  I then asked to deal with the director of the DCT who passed it back to the new manager and passed back again to my SW supervisor.

My social worker was advised to do another full core assessment another (35 working days)  by this time I was given information on fibromyalgia and I passed this onto my SW.

My assessment went on longer than the recommended time scale due to my social worker been in a car accident it took 3 months. I spent hours in meetings with the social worker most of it crying due to lack of sleep pain and stress. I was honest throughout my core assessment about everything my own feelings and our family affairs. I poured my heart and soul out to her and put my trust in her to help us as a family. The results concluding the same no overnight’s so I appealed again and I was told it seemed I was anxious about everything (no shit Sherlock) so they would like to do a child in need meeting with all professionals involved in Archie’s daily care/education/health. This was to take place every 3 months. We have had one and only myself school and social worker turned up I don’t have issues with school.

All this extra stress really wasn’t helping and I am still at a loss to understand why I don’t qualify for nights with all evidence that suggests sleep is an issue for the whole family and also a major factor to my condition. I can’t start to plan for the future, Am I not allowed to be in employment ?  having no sleep and suffering with sleep deprivation and not been able to function most days would not go down well in any job, not to mention trying to fit all the appointments in as well as doing all the other jobs you do as a parent.

As a carer I have rights so why are my needs not met within this assessment ?  I ask?

I have had previous care’s assessment in 09/010 but wasn’t worth anything really as my social worker kindly told me, it wasn’t a real CA ?

I have asked for reasons and each time I get a different answer, first it was because my core assessment didn’t reflect nights like the support plan did so it needed to be looked at again. I was told in the interim period I was able to spend some of the budget on a babysitter (what positive outcome would this be for Archie he would be in bed) and I would still be up in the night and up early ?

Then I was told the excuse of mine and the husband’s relationship wasn’t very stable so I need to try resolve some of our issues first and would we accept marriage guidance I nearly punched someone ( judgemental again, patronising and assuming our marriage had problems) bloody rude.  Dont ever ASSUME as this makes an ASS out of U and ME.

Next came the excuse of what positive outcomes would my Archie get from having overnight’s

Then it was let’s see if things improve when you have been on the sleep programme,  next was do a sleep diary so we can see what his pattern is really like (as if I was lying yes I love the added stress this is causing me) bloody muppet’s some people.

Then came see how he goes with the new sleep medicines.

Archie’s new consultant asked if we had help with over night’s so I sat and explained he wanted to support me in this so wrote to my social worker.  FAT LOT A GOOD IT MADE.

In the mean time he decided to order a sleep deprived EEG on Archie and this came back abnormal and Archie is now on medication for epilepsy. His consultant wanted to see if this is why he has never slept through and causing him to have sleeping issues, This is still under review as we have only been on medication 6 weeks.

Then just recently after more meetings with the councillors and them also been baffled by the way the DCT have been treating my case, I phoned the SW about Archie’s care package again.

I was told things will be better when we move because he will have a room with a safe bed and because Archie’s sleep is not behavioural we can leave him while we sleep, Not sure if I understand this or I miss heard this surely this is neglect ?

The last time I was visited by my SW I was also told that I no longer qualify for a social worker within the DCT and I am transferring onto the family support team ?  And if I wanted my own needs to be addressed then I should contact Adult social care?

The issue above is that services are still seeing the budget as meeting identified needs as opposed to outcomes

The outcome is ‘Getting the rest we need as parents to enable us to give Archie the love, care and attention he needs and to provide a healthy home for him to grow up in’

Decisions (like those made by me and my circle) about how the money is used alongside all the other resources (wealth) around are focused on the above outcome

There is no question about whether Archie needs  overnight’s or not – this is a decision taken by myself and my circle as we feel this is a good way of delivering the above outcome (along with building relationships with extended family and social networks).

An assessment would not say ‘needs’ or ‘doesn’t need’ overnight stays – an assessment would say ‘there are big problems at home caused by Archie’s sleeplessness’ – the care plan (the old world) and in fact does say this, this would then pinpoint services to address this need – what is happening is (common I’m afraid) but the social worker is treating the assessment as a plan as well.

My take here is that things from the old and the new have got all muddled up

1. Archie is eligible for support from Disabled Children’s Team (fact)

2. our family with support from Forum have volunteered to take part in the local authorities IB pilot, and we are also a pathfinder site for the new reforms to SEN (support and aspirations)

3. our family have been given an indicative allocation of £xxxx

4. We have followed the process and put together a plan which meets the needs as they see them (with support it would be hoped from positive, motivated and knowledgeable social workers) NOT

5. The plan sets out how the money will be used to ‘make sure mum and dad get the rest they need’

6. We have made efficient use of the money available along with other resources are not simply getting me and dad some rest but building relationships with others in the family etc – all this is great stuff for a child of  four at the time it took place with additional support needs.

The muddle comes with the feedback from panel – they are prescribing services (baby sitting) and how much money can be used – this isn’t self-directed support but old style service land

Not sure what support planning approach they think they are using ? but it’s not the one I had training on and the one they signed up to with in-control, but if it has ECM outcomes in it then can’t I see how assessment doesn’t have same outcomes. ECM outcomes should incorporate any (ECM = Every Child Matters – Stay Safe, Be Healthy, Make a Positive Contribution, Enjoy and Achieve and Achieve Economic Well Being)

 The message I have is

 THIS IS A PILOT WHICH IS FOCUSED ON GIVING FAMILIES CONTROL OF THEIR CHILD’S PERSONAL BUDGET – it won’t work if the children’s service retains control and prescribes how the PB has to be used – this is not the approach in any of the DfE pilots, or any of the In Control sites I have read about and are already up and running.

Restrictions and prescriptions will only lead to higher cost packages, resources being used less efficiently and poorer outcomes for children and young people in the long run thus costing the state way more money.

So here are my questions and thoughts for tomorrows meeting with the director of the disabled childrens/social care and the manager of the DCT.

For the last 18mths I have followed each stage of the DCT’s suggestions around the sleep issues.

During this time I have had my own diagnosis of ill health which has had a marked effect on my caring role (this also includes care of my sister and father).

Also, Archie has been diagnosed with epilepsy and this with the sleep issues is being investigated.

As it is looking like we will not be moving over the next 6 months please can you give me a clear explanation of why Archie is not entitled to overnight care?

Queastion about Family support.

Can you also give me a clear explanation if there is a new criteria for accessing a social worker and social care?  If so how have parents been involved in the changes and how have their views been taken into consideration?  Are these changes thus official and if so can we see the consultation documents.

As you will know it may be unlawful to make any changes without consultation.

The eligibility criteria must ignore what support I already have. It must focus on understanding the need itself by thinking about what may happen if Archie does not have the support

If our council has changed its eligibility criteria then they need to reassess.  They must decide whether I come into the new criteria before changing the support over to family support.      Personally I am not objecting to the fact that I am moving over to family support but I am objecting to the processes and that my own issues have not resolved or met yet, and can family support really deal with social care packages when truth be told social workers can’t.

FLYING SWAN PARENT

Yes, its true!  ME Patsy Beverley will be flying through the air in a bid to raise funds for SWAN UK.

I have been part of of this wonderful charity/group for a year now, i am the author of the blog “Half a Decade Old”.  I am doing a sponsored Sky Dive, in Bridlington, on the 14th  October to raise funds for children with undiagnosed genetic conditions such as my son Archie.

Archie was born in 2007. He suffers with a range of conditions including delayed development, complex learning difficulties,cerebral visual impairment and now epilepsy. Like many of the families featured in  Without a Diagnosis I have  felt as if we didn’t fit in anywhere- even within the disabled community.

That was, until we found SWAN.

And so I am going raising funds for the project that changed all of that. I aim to raise £1,000 or more to support the children and families that don’t quite “fit in”.

If you would like to sponsor me, to help me acheive that goal, please visit my donation page. Here you will also find more information about me and my motivation to jump out of a plane (!!) And dont forget to go have a read of my other blogs x

Documentary- Without a Diagnosis

Documentary- Without a Diagnosis.

via Documentary- Without a Diagnosis. here is something to get your teeth into watching and spread the word of the undiagnosed, My son is a swan (syndrome without a name) and thanks to a few of the swan families and Kat williams for producing this docamentry . A BIG WELL DONE EVERYONE INVOLVED feel free to share far and wide.

Undiagnosed ? the unknown isn’t that bad after all

Something happened yesterday that i never thought i would see, Archie playing outside in garden independently, He has just started climbing onto his trampoline by himself and off again, so i have started leaving the net open and our back door so he can come in and out by himself, at first i didn’t think he would but he surprised me, he got of his trampoline came in doors found his cup on kitchen side had a drink then popped into the living room went over to his dad gave him a kiss, then back to kitchen came over to me so i cuddled him , then of he popped back outside and climbed onto his trampoline again and bounced away .

This got me thinking back to the day i found out  Archie wasn’t meeting any of his milestones,  and how important it was for me to find out what was wrong with Archie.

It took over my life : i googled every symptom Archie had in his early years:

  • Large head (macrocephaly)
  • Club foot
  • Constipation
  • Floppy ( hypotonia)
  • Feeding difficulties
  • Small hands
  • Small feet
  • Re accruing chest infections
  • Broculities
  • Abdominal pains
  • Failure to thrive
  • Delayed bone age, at 2 years old his bones were that of a newborn
  • High arched roof of mouth
  • teeth grinder
  • Milk,gluten,wheat intolerance’s  (out grown by 4)
  • short statue  (but now grown)
  • sleeping difficulties

I was looking for answers but it seemed nothing fitted Archie and it was distressing because the unknown seemed a scary place, over all he has diagnosed with global development delay.

Eventually I slowed down on googling everything and focused on getting the help Archie needed to support him in every day life, I never had problems getting the services involved it was the length of time it took that got me mad.

So 6 months old  we started going to our local child development unit and here I

started to be brought into the world of disabilities ( OMG I HAVE A DISABLED CHILD ) it had never crossed my mind that he wouldn’t walk, talk, run about like his brother until then. I just thought they would find whats wrong and fix it (how bloody naive was I ).

Gradually as the years passed and we entered more services i came to terms that Archie was special so i put all my strength into been able to support his development, I became his physio, OT, salt, therapists, also his teacher, carer, then this took over my life.

When Archie was 2.5 he started special school all of a sudden i felt made redundant, but i eventually began to enjoy my time off from been his therapists and started to become his mother and friend.

I started to notice his achievements and developments more, and i learnt a diagnosis wasn’t the answer to all my pray’s.

Archie developed more little quirks and problems:

  • Eye problems ( squint, and eventually the diagnosis of , cerebral visual impairment) so now registered partially sighted
  • flat feet
  • tight tendons
  • IBS (irritable bowel syndrome)
  • Icthyosis ?
  • sleeping difficulties ( now known as a sleep debt or problems)
  • P.I.C.A  ( eating disorder of non food items)
  • Sensory impairments
  • Epilepsy ( very recently July 2012)

But this time instead of researching for a diagnosis I am concentrating  on been Archie’s mum and enjoying the fact he is wonderful the way he is and he will achieve what he is able to and develop in his own time ,

Archie can now

  • sit unaided
  • roll over
  • get from lying to sitting
  • sitting to standing
  • standing to walking
  • walking to climbing

OK it may not be as steady, or in the same way as any other child who is 5 but guess what i don’t care because he is doing it ,

Archie’s development in his physical side of things have come on so much, but his development in other areas haven’t  and are a lot slower, he still mouths things like a 3 month old, he doesn’t play with toys appropriately, he has 1 finger in his left ear all the time, he makes such funny noises, he claps his hands so so loud and he( knows to cup one so it sounds louder and wet it)  he bangs his legs on anything he can find, he licks walls, and our legs,faces hair or anything else that takes his fancy, he loves water and would seek it from anywhere, and most of all loves bouncing hence the trampoline.

so to some people or even most Archie may be complex, have server learning difficulties, may become a child with odd behaviours, and is classed as severely disabled. BUT to us as a family he is now just Archie and wouldn’t change him for the world.

This brings me back to the question of do i want a diagnosis or not?

WITH ONE  comes all the evidence that my child may or may not do something that the experts says comes with what ever condition.

But with a undiagnosed child the world is there oyster and will do what ever they can and surprise us every day with there developments and achievements. In some strange way writing this has helped me,, I kind off like living with the unknown maybe more so since i found the wonderful SWAN UK (syndrome without a name) support group, http://www.geneticalliance.org.uk/projects/swan.htm  i no longer feel isolated or alone and we are all going through similar things together and that gives me hope, warmth, and strength that one day maybe we will have answers and this may help other parents but for now all that really matters is Archie continues to develop and learn new skills, he is loved and accepted in this world, warts and all.

                                                                             

NORMAL all this time then a ABNORMAL ?

Wednesday 11th July 2012 we went into hospital for a sleep deprived EEG, this means the night before you only let your child have half the amount of sleep they would normally have.

OK this was a hard call as Archie doesn’t sleep well anyway but we managed.

Today the results are in and they are ABNORMAL, no seizures while having the EEG, never seen him have seizures anyway just vacancies or what we think are vacancies, but there was abnormal activity? so with his vacancies, mycolic little jerks (twitches is what i called them) while falling asleep and random bursts of giggles and also burst of random crying the conclusion is this could be gelestic epilepsy.

The consultant is concerned that this abnormal activity is whats causing his very unusual sleep pattern, Archie gets his REM sleep first ( the deep sleep we all need) instead of gradually going into sleep he goes into his deep sleep first so then comes out of his sleep very quickly, he manages 4 hrs sleep really then its on off on off.

So where does this leave us ? I don’t know not sure how i am feeling or what i should be feeling, the one thing I do know and understand is we just carry on as before except with a dose of epeliam at night that may or may not improve his sleep which in turn may improve his development all ????????????????????????????????? and assumptions though.

my own question is does my boy have a form of epilepsy or not? and should i be worried that he could have a seizures that i am not aware of. so now i feel on pins what if i am missing something vital maybe a clue and BINGO i feel right back to square one of the WHAT IF, THE BUTS ETC or do i just carry on as we have been, and just see what this new meds does in terms of his sleep. I feel shocked that in 5 years and all these test (blood,genetics,screening,observing,photos and all the proding and messing) to always have normal results but today we got one answer and one step closer to maybe some explanations to how my wee little man works.

with a ABNORMAL RESULT how do you deal with it when i was expecting a normal result my answer i just dont know xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx